OVERTHINKING every night can be dangerous?
What do you overthink so much that frustrates you and me?
About our problems, something that should not happen or maybe something unusual in mind that manipulate the whole situation.. something that never happen but you think that thing happened, am I right?
Why it is like that? Why only me? Everyone is normal I am not, why? These are question come to my mind every night. I am not able to sleep at night because of overthinking. Such ubiquitous situation around the world.
Overthinking in my prospective is self-doubting, saying negative about yourself, low self-esteem, making up of things which never happened in your own mind, blaming someone or just yourself, etc. I started having more and more trouble. Since I started overthinking, it's just started to killing me from inside. Many words in my mind which I'm not capable to say to others, it's like having so much to say but not sure about those feeling. They are like so mixed up in a solution called mind, not able to separate into different categories and these solution go straight to my heart stabbing it so hard. But I'm an expert to hide it so well that the other person is not able realize it that I even have a side like that which is so buried under myself that not a single person has able to dig it in and find it who is the real me who is full of griefs and hurt like hell. Because I'm always like cheered up, looks happy, too crazy for parties, socializing,etc. People envy me for what I am right now but not knowing the dark secrets or the struggling's of mine.When I want to give some of my griefs to others they suddenly disappear so quick and I left alone with my own griefs. Till now I haven't met a single person which is available for anytime I want. They are like I have already used her so what's the worry she'll handle it by herself. Just think what it feels like. It's a terrible feeling, I always pray that no one should be in my position to feel things like that. People say to me that I should change my attitude towards world. But I say I have already face the world, when I was in second grade I have been bullied by a girl which used say my dearly classmate. She used/bullied me for a whole year becomes a trauma. For next 5 years I have been struggling and trying to overcome it. It took me 5 years. Image how big 5 years are? Huge, right?
It's just so easy to say, rather than doing it. Most of the people just say, keep on saying it but not able to complete it. Why? Because they are just garrulous people. Whose type of people doesn't bother me at all and you shouldn't be bothered by them because it's their work. You can not interrupt in anyone's works. Now I have to be honest with you.Do you think overthinking can be dangerous? For me it's more powerful than anyone's talks. YEAH! You heard it correctly. It's way more powerful than any outer injure. According to me it's hijack your mind and force you to die.
It's keep on increasing continuously. In ages like teenagers(starting from 12) and adults. Because people like to show off too much? There frustration and anxiety level kept on rising in sake to show off their bodies and money. People always go for a fake one. Who fakes all their things (don't want to mention such things). But in my opinion it's better to nerdy than to be popular because when you are popular, every single thing is known by every unknown person. If something bad happens it just wavy off to the whole world in a second. Which causes many mental disorders. Nothing is private about you. Maybe some people still like it, I won't interrupt them it's their choice not mine's. I respect it totally. I just wanna say that just accept yourself as you are. Whether you are nerdy, clumsy like me, not good in anything, that's okay. Maybe you don't acknowledge you talent. Every single person is born with something in them self which is extraordinary you just have to find it inside yourself. Its will bloom. You will bloom like a flower which always tends to grow never stop just like that never give up always keep on going through any obstetrical.
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you"
About our problems, something that should not happen or maybe something unusual in mind that manipulate the whole situation.. something that never happen but you think that thing happened, am I right?
Why it is like that? Why only me? Everyone is normal I am not, why? These are question come to my mind every night. I am not able to sleep at night because of overthinking. Such ubiquitous situation around the world.
Overthinking in my prospective is self-doubting, saying negative about yourself, low self-esteem, making up of things which never happened in your own mind, blaming someone or just yourself, etc. I started having more and more trouble. Since I started overthinking, it's just started to killing me from inside. Many words in my mind which I'm not capable to say to others, it's like having so much to say but not sure about those feeling. They are like so mixed up in a solution called mind, not able to separate into different categories and these solution go straight to my heart stabbing it so hard. But I'm an expert to hide it so well that the other person is not able realize it that I even have a side like that which is so buried under myself that not a single person has able to dig it in and find it who is the real me who is full of griefs and hurt like hell. Because I'm always like cheered up, looks happy, too crazy for parties, socializing,etc. People envy me for what I am right now but not knowing the dark secrets or the struggling's of mine.When I want to give some of my griefs to others they suddenly disappear so quick and I left alone with my own griefs. Till now I haven't met a single person which is available for anytime I want. They are like I have already used her so what's the worry she'll handle it by herself. Just think what it feels like. It's a terrible feeling, I always pray that no one should be in my position to feel things like that. People say to me that I should change my attitude towards world. But I say I have already face the world, when I was in second grade I have been bullied by a girl which used say my dearly classmate. She used/bullied me for a whole year becomes a trauma. For next 5 years I have been struggling and trying to overcome it. It took me 5 years. Image how big 5 years are? Huge, right?
It's just so easy to say, rather than doing it. Most of the people just say, keep on saying it but not able to complete it. Why? Because they are just garrulous people. Whose type of people doesn't bother me at all and you shouldn't be bothered by them because it's their work. You can not interrupt in anyone's works. Now I have to be honest with you.Do you think overthinking can be dangerous? For me it's more powerful than anyone's talks. YEAH! You heard it correctly. It's way more powerful than any outer injure. According to me it's hijack your mind and force you to die.
It's keep on increasing continuously. In ages like teenagers(starting from 12) and adults. Because people like to show off too much? There frustration and anxiety level kept on rising in sake to show off their bodies and money. People always go for a fake one. Who fakes all their things (don't want to mention such things). But in my opinion it's better to nerdy than to be popular because when you are popular, every single thing is known by every unknown person. If something bad happens it just wavy off to the whole world in a second. Which causes many mental disorders. Nothing is private about you. Maybe some people still like it, I won't interrupt them it's their choice not mine's. I respect it totally. I just wanna say that just accept yourself as you are. Whether you are nerdy, clumsy like me, not good in anything, that's okay. Maybe you don't acknowledge you talent. Every single person is born with something in them self which is extraordinary you just have to find it inside yourself. Its will bloom. You will bloom like a flower which always tends to grow never stop just like that never give up always keep on going through any obstetrical.
When I say I haven't met a single person who understands it's just my overthinking. My heart understands it my mind not able to stop these things. Even I try to some day or the other it just came back to me like a boomerang I throw it out but always came back to me. And my mind is so stubborn that's ignore the fact to tell to someone else and says that keep on going alone and bottling it up more and more, but someday it have to be explored by someone. It can not keep on getting occupying the space because every bottle have their own capacity. That bottle will be opened by someone very soon. It could be anyone. My mom, any friend, other people.
"I've become so numb
-LINKIN PARK (numb)
I felt this at the movement I just start overthinking. I just feel I have become so numb to feel any of my feeling and it's just keep on going like a never ending loop. I feel all the people around me has gone so far, that I'm not able to feel their existence and this thing keeps on tiring me. After so long of suffering I have become mature enough to handle these thoughts to myself without telling anyone.From now I have started to be more like me, the real me, my true self, not fake but not complete me, still trying to be more like me and stop being like you. This is what these lines mean to me. You can always choose to be happy in any situation rather than sad and being hopeless. It's you who have choose, not me and can never be anyone else. Sometimes it's hard and it's okay to be sad but it should not be with you for a longer time.
DON'T TAKE IT TO THE FUTURE. Leave it to the past and just move on and keep on going. I am not telling you to run. If you'll run away, it will hurt you more so, just face it now and finish it forever. So, it will not chase you in the future.
DON'T TAKE IT TO THE FUTURE. Leave it to the past and just move on and keep on going. I am not telling you to run. If you'll run away, it will hurt you more so, just face it now and finish it forever. So, it will not chase you in the future.
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